If i could take this year back i would. it may not have changed your outcome, but i would have more time. you always talked about time. now thats something i do not have. my time is dark and lonely. i wish i had you by my side. i don't know how I'm walking, so much grief, so much sadness. Aunt liz died. that hurt my soul, and i know the family may never recover. i wish i had you here with me. everyday is a challenge. I love you, and will always keep your spirit near my heart

Who would have thought that you would be out of my life for 6 months. since the day we met, I haven't gone 6 days without being with you or speaking with, in your presence. So this 6 months has been unbelievable. I am a widower. I am an orphan. my life transformed in 1 year. It's so unfair that our dreams got cut short, and I know God makes no error, but I sure wish I had just a little more time. I know I wasn't the best wife. But I want you to know I loved you with all of my heart and soul. My life is empty without you. Your side of the bed is still empty and i watch over it everyday, just like i watched over you. I had a sad day today. Mondays are the worst. because its the start of a new week without you. The house is too quiet and Shugar keeps looking for you to come up the driveway or come through the back door, only you never come. I feel your presence in this house. I thought sleeping alone would be scary, but I feel safe in our bedroom, the place where we spent most of our time. and I think your spirit is still here and it brings me peace. But i can't stay in the bed, I need to go out into the world, but I'm afraid. You gave me confidence, now I feel weak. You gave me hope, now I'm afraid. You gave me love, now I'm lonely. i hope heaven is everything you hoped it would be, I know you're safe, and your heart is as healthy as it ever was. i know it feels good to walk around without oxygen. Time will heal your family. Time will cherish your memories. I love you so much, my heart belongs to you forever. Deneen

Sorry I am a day late, but not a day goes pass without me missing you. I had a hard time yesterday that's why I couldn't connect. I went to Walmart yesterday, it wasn't the same without you. Saw your mom today, she misses you too.