I'm sorry I missed a week, but you're always on my mind. Oh how I wish you were here. school is rough, work is nearly impossible and home is not the same. I love you so much. I get stronger by sharing my story with others, i wish we were telling it together. I hope you are at peace. I need to visit your grave site, I'm sure your ground is settling. I pray that i will get stronger. some days i can't even get out of the bed. some days my head hurts so bad, some days I cry with no reason. some days I just wish you were there to comfort me to hold me. i'm so alone. I have so much to do, i need to get it done. i think back to your wishes for me to be home with you. now I'm home without you. one day it will get right and we will be together again.